say hi and wave goodbye

new year new beginning

2011-01-14T09:07:00.000-08:00

you have stolen my heart :)

ASAP

2009-09-15T23:49:00.000-07:00

i need a new replacement. QUICK!
the current one makes me suicidal.

i feel lost

2009-06-10T10:22:00.000-07:00

i have no idea what to do next.

this is the hardest decision ever. it might change my life for better or worse?
i need answers. i need to know whether its going to be ok or not. i need to know whether im making the right choice. is there a 'right' choice? or its just choices? what if the choice i make its not the right right one and in the end im left to deal with the 'ugly' things? what if i dont like the new company? what if i still feel miserable after everything? now its pretty ok. what if half of me wanna quit? what if i dont wanna sing along the same song? what if i just say no?

my motivation?

2009-05-02T20:47:00.000-07:00

would love to have this meal every day!

I did it!!!

2009-04-09T02:55:00.000-07:00

YaY!!!!!
i finally watched a movie alone! in a cinema. hahaha. ive always wanted to do that but somehow felt like 'nah...maybe some other time.......'.

ive eaten alone; loved it.

shopping alone; always a pleasure. i dont need to worry about the other person's feelings. whether they are bored or whether they hate my fashion sense. i love the way i dress. :)

now...what shall i try??......

i should have listened

2009-03-23T08:21:00.000-07:00

im in big shit and its so freaking hard to get out of it.
i should have listened
im what i am today because of what happened
i should have listened
i want to be free but somehow im too deep in it
i should have listened
im regretting it (50/50)
i should have listened
its so hard to know the truth or tell the difference
i should have listened
i should walk away....
i should have listened

things on my mind now.

2009-03-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

1. i cant see/look at matches. creeps me out. SERIOUSLY
2. im afraid of the elevators, if possible ill take the stairs. i used to walk up 13 floors just to get to class. was way thinner back then. hah!
3. i love cherries. fresh ones.
4. i love tom yam. yummy.
5. i love cheese but i cant take cheese cake. makes me wanna puke.
6. i like organic food
7. i love loccitane. everything!
8. im using kiehl's. from face to body products.
9. im fussy
10. if i dont like something i will show it, hence my black face.
11. i hate ppl easily, yes its a bad trait. cant help it. but when i love someone, its forever.
12. im close to my cousins.
13. i love going for facials but sadly have to cut down.
14. i love going to spas too.
15. i love having tea/coffee/seri muka kuih with friends, family
16. i love japanese food. i love the avocado salad at rakuzen.
17. i like sweet looking things.
18. i dont really know about pc stuffs.
19. im glad i made new friends.
20. i cant wear court shoes. i get blisters as soon as i wear them.
21. i love wearing slippers.
22. i love handbags.
23. i used to buy all the lesportsac bags till im broke.
24. i cry easily.
25. im pampered but not in a dumb blonde kinda way.
26. im sarcastic
27. i can be mean too.
28. im not selfish.
29. i want to have a baby.
30. im exhausted, emotionally traumatised.

The pieces dont fit anymore

2009-03-17T09:02:00.000-07:00

sung by James Morrison.

i really love that song. keeps me calm. no idea why. the album is actually not bad. reminds me of better times when i dont have to worry about certain things. everything is much peaceful back then. i felt free.

free. freedom.

i wish for that.

i bruise like a fruit

2009-03-16T02:15:00.000-07:00

i do bruise like a fruit. Hit me and you'll see.

anyways,

i do not want to hear anything about engagements or weddings. Once or twice its ok, but every week? oh come on! i do not want to know whether your bra matches your panties. im happy for you but no, dont want to know the details....

tired of listening, its the same old thing. maybe im not in a good mood today.

loving me loving you

2008-08-21T10:47:00.000-07:00

that's what we have been doing.

when is the right time?

2008-07-21T08:30:00.000-07:00

Forgive and forget.

That's what they say.All the time. It's good advice, but it's not very practical.

When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right.

Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled...old wounds never heal.

And the most we can hope for, is that one day we'll be lucky enough to forget.

The truth is, I don’t know anyone who isn’t haunted by something... or someone.

And whether we try to slice the pain away with a knife or shove it in the back on the closet, our efforts usually fail.

what then is happiness?

2008-07-17T08:53:00.000-07:00

'Live in this world as if you are a stranger or a traveler who is just passing through'

the less you know the better.

the past is gone forever

2008-07-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

someone told me that:

'By brooding over the past and its tragedies, one exhibits a form of insanity- a kind of sickness that destroys resolve to live for the present moment.'

I totally agree with him. It is true and sadly, im still at 'it'.

I also know that, by constantly dwelling on it will only place myself in a very frightful and tragic state of mind.

I am doing something about it. Trust me. I'm also thankful that i have my significant other to support me in ways that I can never repay back. Thank you and I love you.

I am trying to adopt a new attitude towards it

Just some thoughts before i go to bed. It's a constant reminder to me.

Well, God bless. =)