i should have listened

im in big shit and its so freaking hard to get out of it.
i should have listened
im what i am today because of what happened
i should have listened
i want to be free but somehow im too deep in it
i should have listened
im regretting it (50/50)
i should have listened
its so hard to know the truth or tell the difference
i should have listened
i should walk away....
i should have listened

things on my mind now.

1. i cant see/look at matches. creeps me out. SERIOUSLY
2. im afraid of the elevators, if possible ill take the stairs. i used to walk up 13 floors just to get to class. was way thinner back then. hah!
3. i love cherries. fresh ones.
4. i love tom yam. yummy.
5. i love cheese but i cant take cheese cake. makes me wanna puke.
6. i like organic food
7. i love loccitane. everything!
8. im using kiehl's. from face to body products.
9. im fussy
10. if i dont like something i will show it, hence my black face.
11. i hate ppl easily, yes its a bad trait. cant help it. but when i love someone, its forever.
12. im close to my cousins.
13. i love going for facials but sadly have to cut down.
14. i love going to spas too.
15. i love having tea/coffee/seri muka kuih with friends, family
16. i love japanese food. i love the avocado salad at rakuzen.
17. i like sweet looking things.
18. i dont really know about pc stuffs.
19. im glad i made new friends.
20. i cant wear court shoes. i get blisters as soon as i wear them.
21. i love wearing slippers.
22. i love handbags.
23. i used to buy all the lesportsac bags till im broke.
24. i cry easily.
25. im pampered but not in a dumb blonde kinda way.
26. im sarcastic
27. i can be mean too.
28. im not selfish.
29. i want to have a baby.
30. im exhausted, emotionally traumatised.

The pieces dont fit anymore

sung by James Morrison.

i really love that song. keeps me calm. no idea why. the album is actually not bad. reminds me of better times when i dont have to worry about certain things. everything is much peaceful back then. i felt free.

free. freedom.

i wish for that.

i bruise like a fruit

i do bruise like a fruit. Hit me and you'll see.

anyways,

i do not want to hear anything about engagements or weddings. Once or twice its ok, but every week? oh come on! i do not want to know whether your bra matches your panties. im happy for you but no, dont want to know the details....

tired of listening, its the same old thing. maybe im not in a good mood today.